Monthly Archives: April 2009

Kenny Chesney & C’s Get Degrees

April 29, 2009 — Add Comment

Aubrey IslandI am so not motivated to study, for a number of reasons; but the main one is my uhm, depression? I am on a thin straw and everyone’s trampling on it! No, it’s not anyone’s fault at all, in fact it’s entirely my own…

Man, I feel like I was talking like this just last semester. I feel like I am learning school all over again for some reason, I took a semester off, then another one and thought to myself, “I should get back before I get in that slump everyone talks about.”

Curse that slump! I know I keep saying I am going to do better the next semester, but I may have identified the problem: I keep thinking, any second now, I am going to get this close and I won’t be able to finish or the world will kick my ass for succeeding. I also have the erry feeling that school is going to let me down, and I think I have been trying to avoid finding out…

But, hopefully, there’s new hope… I am going to try and focus on today more, the week; not fifty years down the line like I do all the time.

Note: Good song to listen to to get started on something like this: Alright by Darius Rucker.

But! On an awesome note, I got to go see Kenny Chesney last weekend!

Me & Ash on the lawn before the concert.

Me & Ash on the lawn before the concert.

Ash had to have the $25 hat, like she hadn't paid enough already.

Ash had to have the $25 hat, like she hadn't paid enough already.

I swear that littly guy is just a double that syncs to the screen :)

I swear that little guy on stage is just a double that syncs to the screen :)


It was awesome! Huge! But he didn’t sing my favourite song: Key Lime Pie

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Being genuine again.

April 27, 2009 — Add Comment

So, today I woke up – went to class – bombed a test, like every other normal day. But then, like every once in a while, I stared thinking about how I am going to ‘help people’. I’m always writing things down in my notebooks for class, I wrote:

How do I want to help?

  • Psychology: listen, solve, comfort.
  • Religion: peace, impact “evil” in a one-solution kind of way.
  • Make us “fools” again: encourage gnosis, but discourage the knowledge of right and wrong.

And then, I stared thinking about my website and then I started thinking, “how many times have I stared a website, just to delete it months later?” Then, that got me thinking about Genuinity, a term I like to hold close to my own personality and I started realizing something: I haven’t been being very genuine lately.

That got me thinking about my happiness lately, my insecurities, and my hope for the world. I need to get back into that, and maybe this post is the start of that, whatever it is!

I wrote something really cool on my status update today:

Genuinity embraces truth, whether it be known or not; it just treats truth like it exists.

Kind of a summary on what I’m talking about… I’m going to start off by being more genuine, and seeing where it takes me. I’ve been hiding a lot, maybe I can help by showing more…

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